yep. sometimes it all falls apart and there is nothing left to do but give in.
the house is a mess.
i have things i have to get done tomorrow and it all starts early.
last night was more of a nap than a night of sleep, making today hard.
today was long. there was some fun connecting time with friends {and a surprised iced mocha treat} that i loved. but it was still just a long day. i don’t even have the energy to type properly {so all lowercase letters it is}!
tonight was long too. homework didn’t get done. cereal was eaten for dinner {outside on a picnic table}. you see the dining room table is currently under siege…my craft supplies have a habit of attacking our home from time to time}. the couch is having its own battle with clean laundry that needs to be folded. the coffee table already lost the battle since folded laundry has now been sitting on it for two days. lets just say the dishes won long ago so we won’t talk about those.
and as for the kids i just wanted them to go to bed. is it just us or does it seem like when you want them to go down the most they have the hardest time falling asleep. blake put up a good fight but is finally asleep. sweet, night-owl, restless paige is finally asleep {in our bed at the moment}. grant drifted off easiest {he tends to go with the flow except for when he is not going with the flow and then i’m really stumped}.
ahhh. can you hear that? it’s my brain trying to rest.
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i made a lot of mistakes today.
i didn’t want to be a fire wife tonight…doing this alone. i yelled more than i would like to admit. and i disliked the fact that i was eating my dinner at 8 PM and feeding blake again and trying to convince paige that getting out of bed again would yield terrible consequences. but then i didn’t have the energy to come up with terrible consequences so she landed in my bed so i could just get some peace. and then i didn’t like that i caved. but i did because selfishly i just wanted a minute to be alone.
i realize that even though so many things needed to be done today it’s okay to let it go.
i have to give into the chaos, take care of my babes and head to bed.
…well…
after i print a few things and post this and check my phone one more time i will head to bed.
fingers crossed.
here’s hoping “tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes in it…yet” as my beloved Anne & Miss Stacy would say.
