That is the question!
The holiday season always tends to be a reflective time for me. I cannot help but think about the past year and dream, plan and wonder about the year to come. I’m not big on New Year’s resolutions because they just seem like a chore. How often do people really carry out these goals and how guilty do they feel when all enthusiasm is lost by January 3rd!?! However, I am a very goal oriented person. I tend to feel more balanced in life when I have a sense of purpose and a few goals in mind. But what are my goals and what is my purpose?
Right now, I would say that my purpose is to serve God, love my husband and take care of my kids…and to be kind & loving to people around me. But I have to be honest for a minute here. While it is not all bad and I love being home with my kids, life as a stay at home mom (even with its rewards) can be tough. It is physically and emotionally taxing and unceasingly monotonous. For a person who loves change- the monotony it is rough at times. I do not thrive on routine…I dread it! Also, I have a few health problems that tend to make life with two young kids difficult at best (but that is a whole different story for another day). I am often plagued by self-doubt and fears about how to raise our kids & how to love my husband well. Despite my husband’s wonderful and regular appreciation I often question if I am ever going to get it all right. When I get stuck in all this stuff I worry about how to set my goals and make time for my dreams. It can all just seem so overwhelming and messy. And then I remember and am once again struck by one of my favorite quotes:
ask yourself what makes you come alive.
And then go and do that.
God has great plans for you… and hopes for you!
Maybe this year I can give up the guilt, be free and continue to evaluate & ask myself what makes me come alive…I hope you will too!
Happy New Year!